As an artist I do a lot of creating. As a male, I create in a certain way. I am good at conceiving an idea, powering ahead with a plan and just making it happen.
In my life I’ve had some beautiful female partners that I have artistically co-created with. However, I look back and see a disturbing pattern of imbalance. I allowed my particular energy and my ambition to overrule their feminine energy and wisdom. The art and dreams always happened, but… more in my way than our way. Alas, the moments that then manifested always contained a certain intrinsic dis-harmony.
I beleive this had to do with my excessive faith in the male way of doing things, and my lack of understanding of the way femine energy works and contributes. I don’t think this is all my fault, we live in a world where the masculine energy has dominated the femine for a looong time. We… I… am just waking up.
While I was in Italy something profound happened. My sleeping eyes fluttered open for the first time.
I had been asked to orchestrate a human spiral mandala dance at a weekend Oneness Festival in Ossopo, Italy. My lover, Peggy was with me from Germany. I busied myself the first day with my characterisitc running around, planning and organizing. I was wary of involving Peggy in the busy activities. Why? Well, because in the past when I had involved my partners in creating, that dis-harmony had always resulted. Subcounsciouly I wanted to avoid it.
But, at the end of the day Peggy came up to me and said “Russell I’d really like to help you”. I was touched. We had a long talk where I shared my fears and she reassured me. For the first time ever, I truly let a woman in to co-create with me.
I could feel the shift, because it wasn’t easy! I had to stand back in order to let her stand beside me.
We had alot to conceive that next day– no one there had ever organized a spiral mandala dance before! Nor, search as I might, could I find anything on the Internet. I really had no clue what I was doing, or how it would happen. But Peggy, soft spoken and reserved, had some intuitions.
“Why don’t we try this Russell?” Her ideas were fantastic. In fact, they were so much better than mine, that I just had to shup up, and let her flow. Working together in the middle of the field, she figured it out as I nodded my head. Then with her having set the direction, I set to work with my energy, oratory and manifesting powers. I went about bringing together the people and equipement we needed to pull it off.
The Spiral dance was a fantabulous success. Peggy did her part. I did mine. Magically, we co-created a ceremony that profoundly symbolized the harmonious working together of male and female.
200 Italians, holding hands male/female/male/female (Peggy’s idea) danced a grand spiral for the Festival’s closing ceremony. In the center was a man drumming and a woman singing (Peggy’s idea). The centre shape of the spirale, laid out with wood, was the ying yang symbol (Peggy’s idea). All in all it was a profoundly symbolic in a way that I simply could never have planned. In then end it, with the drums and the singing and the chanting, it was a beautiful beautiful experience that moved people to joy and laughter and tears.
The moment has echoed on. Similar spirals have since happened in Berlin and Assisi. When I regain my health there will be yet more.
I beleive that my health crash is actually connected to my past dis-harmony. According to a Chinese medical practitioner, I have a significant yin energy imbalance– hence the numbness in one side of my body. Yin, the energy that is missing, is of course the female energy. Part of my healthing includes restoring this balance, finding harmony, inside and out.
Working with Peggy was a startlingly beautiful taste of the POWER of this Supra Sexual co-creation where the man and woman are conscious of how to energetically work with each other. As My dream of Paris unfolds, I must now grasp these insights consciously. If I keep creating the way I have, its just not going to be good for me.
I have a beautiful woman awaiting me in Paris. Our hands are outstretched to the other. There are grand planetary projects waiting to be manifest. They are going to need some serious magic.
Can you say “Supra Sexual co-creation ” Russell? Yeah? Ok now… How about standing back a bit, and letting the women do her magic?
“Some day, after we have mastered the winds, the waves, the tides and
gravity, we shall harness…the energies of love. Then, for the second
time in the history of the world, man will have discovered fire.”
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Pierre Theilhard de Chardin
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The Spiral Movie Project
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SMUmdpSGyHs
(I should also add that the idea of doing the spiral was from another woman too! (danke Marion!) I am just the man in front of the women folks!)
More from Babara Marx Hubbard on the topic.
