This will be what I call a Vaughn post– where I write about bad stuff. Bad stuff, sickness, accidents, anger, frustration are so much harder to write about. My good friend Vaughn urged me once after two months of golden sunshine posts that I needed to make it real. Life’s got its ups and downs and I can’t be visiting school children everyday.
I write with a fever. This should be interesting.
Just before I was about to leave the remote village of Mainit I got sick. I had been out delivering portraits and toys to an even more remote village. Maybe it was the food there. I felt Real bad. Fever. chills. diarrhea. It sucked because their was no Internet or cell access and no pharmacy. My good friend/angel Sarah helped me get the medicine I needed.
I got back to town and felt beter. Then it got worse. And worse. Now five days later I am back at square one with a fever. Shitty. I feel like I am going to slowly wither and weaken away into meaningless nothingness. Satre would smile and say I’ve made a great existential revelation.
My friend points out that everything is connected. So my last blog commented on the challenges and obstacles with my art project. It’s at that crazy stage where it is collapsing and exploding at the same time. My finances just ran out to see it through over the gap. The hosting and domain all expire in a two days. The crazy thing is we have a great sponsor lead and just today I was going to talk to a business man that I have been preparing a doc to show him for over a year (well, and show others too). It’s agonizing… After so much work and the doc is so strong now…. Facebook would friggin commission us…
Ok… Too tired to type now. I rest. No happy ending here folks. It’s insane really…